Wat's happening to me? Is it consider a good thing? I'm so not interested in guys now, even spending a night wif a guy nothing would happen. I won't let him touch me at all, in fact i feel gross... Keep having nightmares of wat would happen, totally freak me out... I'm getting out of it. Good gal.


Miss him so much, and haf dreams of him ever since he left. No way of contacting him, wanted to hug him tight when he's back and tell him how much i miss him. Am i falling in love for real? Wat r we exaclty? I got no idea at all, and yet i dun wan to know the truth as well. Truth always hurts, anway it doesn't matter to me now.

Did i say i hate guys...!? Oh well, if i can't beat them, gonna join them.. Haha. Been playing with d thot of dressing up as a guy one day and get chicks.. LOL. Hmm.. gonna make some planning first ya. =P Ok, i guess i'm sick. It has been a very busy month for me. So many things had happened in such a short time. First, what haf i done!!? *screams* Asking kelvin to be my boyfriend in d first place?? okok, no regrets. Cos i know myself, i won't give up if i dun try it. Now it doesn't work out at all, and he know it very well. He even spell it out that i 'forced' him into it, and now i 'forced' him out of it. I mean, doesn't that solves ur problem dude? Since i'm d one who forced u into it in the first place??? I nearly give it a consideration man, until u mentioned how u r looking forward to fulfil my fantasy. *red light* uh-uh.. No Way!! U screwed it up man! U r so close to making me say 'yes'... Too bad, ur true colours still show in d end. Get away from me..! *ahem* anyway my fantasy haf been fulfilled.. Can die happily.. keke..


Oh Des... What r u trying to do exaclty??? What do u want from me? Well, at least its something different from d guys i used to date. Maybe its really something different this time eh? U really take it slow dun ya? But yet u talk alot of stuffs to me... Or its just that u r too chicken to put thots into action..? haha.. okie dokie, i'm gonna be a very good gal for u. I'm not sure if its good or bad news for u.. =P Anyway i'm sick of it already, and like i say. No expectation = No disappointment


Got it?

It wuz a big mistake meeting K again. Nope, feelings that i used to have for him did not come back again.. He's still d same, like any other guys... Going back to him? No way... I'm sorry, but d truth just hurts.


So disappointed wif M**, tat asshole! Poor gal that she haf fell for him hard and yet things turn out this way. I know it would end sooner or later, but i thot it wld be in a more civilized way.. His frenz isn't any better anyway, tinking back of thier amused expression and see us like alien just make my blood boil. I'm really tinking twice about getting into a relationship now. After so much had happened i tink i better off be alone. At least i won't get hurt. We shall see......