A Happier Me

I'm so looking forward to my leave man.. Next monday & tueday.. Long weekend for me.. Yippee! I'm gonna get a present for Mango's birthday 1st March ey.. I actually gave him an 'unforgettable' birthday last year... And this year would be d same i hope.. I enjoy giving ppl surprises and of cos only ppl i care about and care about me as well..


Okay.. my love's life.. Hmmm.. Well, what more can i say about guys.. All they think is about S** but what can i complain about? I would be worried if my guy doesn't ey.. ;P

At last.. D real me...


I love the password thing..! I feel like i can write watever i want now, free at last.. Thanks Kailee for helping me out with tis and the password is soooo... impossible to think of loh.. haha..


Okay, that guy. I give up hope.. I'm not tat hard up, and i somehow decided to be single and free for this year first. Feel so free, relieve that i made tis decision. Now i dun feel tat i'm looking for something anymore. Love myself for it, no one can treat me better except myself i figure out. Like i told someone not long ago.. Happiness is something that u can give yourself only. Not sure if he got d idea, but i do hope it would wake him up and be a happier person.


Recently i got this thing in my mind. Watever thgs that i'm not getting it or be it, i only haf myself to blame. I'm d one who didn't push myself hard enough. Its always not discipline enough, i hate myself for that. As i grow older everyday, its scary to tink tat i'm missing somethg everyday. I don't like that feeling. From today onwards, gonna push myself real hard and pull my socks real high!

MAD!


Damn frustrated by the people around me!!! Pissed me off..! Why they just can't listen to simple instructions?? Yes, 5 mins and off you go please.. Isn't it that simple or you are just trying to test my patience?? I'm a nice person. But don't ever try to take advantage of me k!


I hate pepole who break their promise. If you are not going to do it, please don't make any promises. It's damn disappointing k!


What happen to this world? Simple things can make it seems so much complicated? Why so? Where's the honest, be frank with each other thing gone to?


I do not owe anything to the family alright. I'm suppose to be part of the family, not the head of the house. Stop expecting anything from me anymore! I give and give and give.. But when am i going to get anything back from you people? In d first place i don't expect anything back, but pleasee.... Don't ask me to give anymore. Let me go... ...


Am i being too silly? I feel like a lamb chop. Letting you eat me just let that. I was telling Sab last night, that this is not a fling. At least i don't want it to call it that way. It's like so crude, when u know what is going to happen and u are letting it happen.. I call it a dream.. Its kinda sad, but i got no choice. Its like a dream that u r happy in the dream and u don't want to wake up. Yet its hard to continue the dream the next day u fall asleep and quite impossible to have the same dream again.. Well, at least for me its a dream come true. But d problem is that i have to wake up from it..

What's in my mind...


Been extremely busy recently, and i will still be for the rest of the month. I still have 7.5 half day of leave to clear before 31st March '06. Yoohoo! Guess should be giving myself a week break next month. Hmm... where should i go and what should i do..? I feel like getting a chalet and wake up every morning and chill at the beach reading a book. But kinda lonely if i'm going alone.


Hurray! I'm going to sentosa this sat. ^_^