Not just that...


Can't believe that i actually did that.. What have i done? Why should i say those things? Why?? I mean that's what on my mind, but its not just that.. Does he knows..? I wanted more than that.. Should i ask him first? I did try to go slow.. But it just happened.. I don't it to end just like that by asking him d question. But doesn't seems to make any sense if it just happen without knowing what's going on exactly too.. argghhh.. Frustrating..

All Alone


At home d whole day, slept for almost half a day.. Dreamt alot.. Like a very long movie. I believe tats its true when ppl say dreams are what u think during the day and stuffs that u stress about.. I can't say that it was a bad dream.


I was at d house, his house.. Somehow or another, i got chase by his neighbour's dog. I was terrified, i ran, and i ran, i ran to him.. And i hide under his wings.. I felt so safe.. Realise what i'm doing, i ran again.. This time, away from him.. I'm confused, puzzled..


I'm with him again, this time we r in a public place.. We are looking, and shopping around.. All of d sudden, he pull me aside.. He embraced me, i.. felt.. so safe and warm.. Maybe its my bolster.. haha.. But i can't believe that it felt so real.. I never wanted to let go.. He knows that i'm scared. That hug answer to all my questions..


Do dreams comes true..?


I do hope so....

Happy Chinese New Year!


Yay..! Gonna be a great year ahead.. =)


This year didn't go to grandma's house for reuion dinner
because of my parents.
They didn't communicate to each other before hand
and my mum throw her temper again as usual..
While my dad on the other hand loses his patience
with her again..


What happens to compromise each other??
I dun like it when ppl always throw temper and
lose it's cool to their loved ones..
I'm happy when the ppl i love is happy,
i like making them happy.
Frenz are telling me that i should focus more on myself.
I'm learning to love myself more now.
And i deserve it.. =)


I went to Alexis house last nite for a gathering.
He's my new friend, and i was so nervous and still thinking if i should join them..
I'm still very shy when comes to meeting new ppl..
I feel like a little girl sometimes.. maybe i still am.. haha.
Anyway i'm glad that i did..
When i reached there most of them are high and having a little too much to drink already.
I got a drink and quickly drank it as i need it to loosen me up abit,
Feeling so shy with so many strangers. Keke.. silly me..


They are very nice ppl and we play cards until some of them really need to go Zzzz..
My luck was not so good and lose $5 but i had fun, they can be so funny..
After that is manjong session, which i try very hard to focus on the game..
Long... time since i last stay overnight and didn't sleep..
Got this buzzing sound in my ear the whole nite.


Erm, conclusion is.. i need more manjong lessons. Keke..
Without the influence of alcohol please.. haha..

Monday Madness


Just got home from work. I nearly screw up an order today.. Actually forgot to get service staff for my event..
Luckily at the very last minute manage to get some staffs there..
But still, have the face the music tomolo.. Haiz...


First thing in the morning tomolo have to go Nanyang Poly to recee the venue..
Then food sampling at 1pm... BUSY day...
Nvm, looking forward to my weekend.. CNY coming.. Yay! =)


Actually luck still not so bad, at least manage to secure a few big deals.. Hehe..
Remember to tell boss tomolo about it and hope he
overlook d past few days mistake i have made.. Haha..


Its another year again.. I feel like i'm only in primary school only yesterday..
Life is really a lifetime learning.. Learning everyday..
So many things i have not try yet, and ppl i haven met, places i haven been yet..
And many many more.. Hmm..
I guess one step at a time ya.. =)


Let me be.. positive.. Cya again.

As Usual...


Eh... Still at work.. Wa.. The work just keep piling up.. X_x


CNY coming.. Gonna buy goodies and keep stock soon. Yum yum! =)
Looking forward to some frenz gathering and grandma house, should be fun.. Hee..


Hmm.. *tummy growling* i want to go home =(


Went to haf sushi with Sabrina last night, haf a great talk and walk too.. hehe..
She look great in her new hair cut, think its time for me to get a cut too..!
Okay, go cut hair after work..
Mmm.. I guess a trim would be fine.. =)

He's back..


He's back from the two days MC, how i wish he's not coming back for good. Did i tell you how much i hate him?? Agrrh...


I want a break of what i have been thinking lately. I must give up.. So scary if history repeat again, i don't to.. I rather not try.


Ok, busy day for me..

Rainy day


Its raining cats & dogs outside now.. Staying back for a food sampling in office, and as usual, client is late.. Haiz..


My boss is not very happy with me, i can tell that. What to do..
Anyway, don't think too much and just give my best. =)
Everybody seems to have their own problems, i guess i'm quite lucky already.
My only problem could be that i think too much.. Haha..


Okay.. Gonna look at d bright side of life now.. =)
I'm quite in a good mood today as you can tell, and don't know why much calmer.
The things that i used to think its important doesn't seems so now..
Hmm.. i guess i having mood swings.. Hee..


I miss hanging out with my friends ya..
Ok, gonna call up that client of mine now. See ya! =)

Dreamy thots


I can't believe that i put boyfriend on my wishlist. But i did.
I can't help it.. And i believe i'm falling in love too..


Initial C.
That's what my dear friend want me to call him. Ha.. Cool.
Thanks. For whatever you have inspire me.
Initial C told me a story, his story. Women.
Strange creature, we think we are far more complicated than what men think we are.
I guess everyone is equal, no bad bf or bad gf.
Just two people not suitable for each other.
R we being too fussy? Too focus on things that don't really matter in a relationship and overlook the important ones..


Dear frenz, if, if u are in a relationship. Celebrate and tell your loved one how much you love them.
Its fate that brought two people together and cherish it.
Be positive and it always help to put yourself in each other's shoes and work things out.
Give, without expecting anything back. Good if there's something back. End of the day if things still don't work out, at least i know i have done my part.
Don't regret.


I want to love again like i never have been hurt before..
Easier to say than done. I envy my friends..
Yes, gal i'm talking about u. =p
They usually don't have much time to be single after they end a relationship. They healed faster somehow, and move on.. I'm happy for them.. I've seen quite a number of happy faces.
What love have done to them!? Oh god.


*Scrolling up*
Hmm.. What am i babbling about..? Ha..
Well, let me be and see u again

Won't be d last..


I did it again... i screwed it up again...
I really did thot tat it would be something different this time.
I can feel it... But did he...?


I'm tired. Tired of the games. People are scared of the truth and to be honest about their true feelings. If they let it out, they will get hurt.
I do.


Day pass like flipping pages of a diary, and only memories left. U flip a page and there u have pass a day, its tat fast..


Am i being too rash and impatient? I admit i am, and you can't blame me. I ain't got any patience after what i've been through.


I'm not regreting anything that i've done, but only the things that i have not. Again, sorry for being blunt and straightfoward but that's what i exactly wanted at that point of time.


Work. I used to love it. Now i'm dread of it, and yet i have to pretend that i'm not. I can't stop, at least not now..
Gonna push myself harder and i know i can do it. I can do much more and better than that, i have to.


J is chasing me for the resume, i know its for my own good. Feeling confused and wrong that J treating me this way. Good.
J shouldn't have, cos its cruel for me. But on the other hand J is my hope at times when there's no one i can turn to..
Where's my next J..? Please find me soon.. If an address would helps..?


My mum ask me to beat 'xiao ren', i thot i would do so.. its getting unbearable, i can't breathe.. Get off my back and leave me alone..
What do they want from me exaclty? Or what have i done to them? I do my best and they are not happy?
Stop picking at me for everything i do.. Worried that i would turn crazy one day and run naked and free.. i would run fast and far..


Lots of pairs of eyes are on me now, i can feel it on my back. It can be frustrating and yet pleased at times.. Does it means i have got it?


Looking forward to my weekend break next month.. With tat someone and know it would it would be a great one.
Appreciate tat he actually say yes.


Hard to find someone that i can really clicked and it can be sad to found one to. Never know when they will be out of your life.
Is it safer to be guarded? Should i be brave and dream of it? There have been too many dreamless nights... Too long...


Do people actually know what they really want? Why they dun even want to try to get what they want, if not, they keep doing it the wrong way..
They always like it to be challenging and never like short cuts? What's wrong with these people? They like to suffer so much?
Can't get out of it? Bullshit. Some tell me its love...


Let me be, and I will talk to you again