Wow... I can't believe that i have been sleeping at 3am for d whole of last week. All becos of them, M & R. Havng supper for the past few days too. Arghhh... Getting fat. We actually went to Dbl O on thurs and its exacalty one week we haf know each other from there. Ha.. Funny, that R and me danced in our office wear. Keke.. He closed his eyes and imagine that he is in his jeans and T-shirt. LOL. And we manage to talk a little more that nite, as we walked away from Jolyn & M giving them some privacy. I told him not to call me anymore. Cos i see no point for him to do so, and i feel guilty. Although we didn't do anything wrong, but i still feel sad for d gal. And i worry that something will develop, and maybe it already have. But he still called and i didn't pick up like i promise.



Last nite, we meet up again and chill at Fisherman Village. Was very surprised that he is like himself. D real him. No more jokes and making fun of me at all. He tell me more about himself, and at last he sound like someone decent and haf a life. Halfway thru, i thot of J. D memories of him and me used to eat there makes me miss him. Just missing only... He's helping me wif my resume now and we still keep in touch. Ok, back to R. Talking to him last nite, is most rewarding and its like i just got to know him d first time. He asked me if i wld pick up his call again. I say no... Am i making d right choice?

A Long Story...


Okay, lotsa of things and events had happened to me in this short period. So, lets talk about the guys..


Guy1
I got to know him from Justdate. Ok, i admit i left him a msg first cos he looks like someone fun from d pic he put up. The first meeting was bad, terrible really and i thought it would be d last in fact. We are both in formal dressing, and he.. is actually slightly shorter than me and d worst part is i'm in heels that day! Which makes me feel very much like Zena standing besides him. That not it, and while waiting for our movie to start we haf decided to go and haf a drink and chat. Halfway through he called up a gal and ask her to join us without asking me if i mind.. God, i thought it was rude although i say i dun mind and hell of cos i do but he already made the call what can i say? And i just feel like a total lightbulb when d gal reach, and he was like into this gal or what and talking to her d whole time which makes me feel really left out.. In my mind i'm thinking thats it man.. *red light* He was practically sleeping through the whole movie which i dun really blame him cos he didn't get much sleep d nite before. He left in a hurry for his bike club meeting after the show. I went back home feeling utterly disappointed. But to my surprise, he msg me d next day which i thought he could make a nice friend too. We agree to do a movie marathon d next time. And we did, we watched 3 movies that day and i manage to get to know him better. I really enjoyed d ride on his Harley, was awesome! Basically, he's a nice chap with tons of galfrenz in his phone list.
To be continue...


Guy2
Its another guy from Justdate again. First impression, is he's really looking for that someone special. Which stress me abit when comes to meeting him. I always like a challenge, so its advisable for guys not to come too strong on me d initial stage. haha.. I reluctantly agree to meet him for dinner only if he dun mind my sis come along that day. As i predicted he dun mind and we had dinner at Creation Cafe. He told us that he used to be a relief teacher sometime back teaching in my sis school which strangely didn't rememeber what's d colour of d uniform. He look abit like Chen Hanwei and he even sound like him when we headed to Kbox after d dinner. No connection from him. Although i find him gentlemanly enough when he picks up all d bills that day. He called me up for lunch d next day and again with my sis tagging along, and told my sis that i had a feeling that we would be doing this quite often in future. Cos he works near my place, but i hope it wun happen.. I don't think i really like smokers...


Dlb O Guys
Went clubing wif Jolyn and got to know them. Its all becos we both get abit too tipsy, and Jolyn thot that d guy R look kinda cute. I find him abit too short for my taste but i must admit that he does look cute under d dim lightings. Ha.. Somehow we manage to catch each other eyes and smiling. So standard we started to intro everybody and M caught my eyes and i got to talk to him while Jolyn with R. I find M a potential bf in fact but good things never happen to me. Somehow or another we exchange partners and Jolyn talk to M and me to R. Jolyn managed to get namecard from M and they started to smsing each other. I wuz told by Jolyn that d R actually like me!? And i haf a feeling that M haf a better impression of Jolyn. We ended up going to Momo that nite and proved me right that M wuz into Jolyn. Funny thing is that i can't believe R actually like me and i confronted him. He admitted! But he dun really gives me a very good impression, cos he dun really sound truthful in d things he had say. Until now i dun even know what is he doing?? He's a malaysian and got a heavy accent when he speak mandarin. Weird. D best part is everybody says that i resemble his ex gf. That's not a good sign. Worst, i gave him my namecard and i didn't even get a msg from him at all today! Annoying! Well, good luck to me...

Just getting older..


Damn tired at work, have been going to functions for the past few days.. I got another 3 days leave next week, which makes me looking forward to it and yet dread of it. Cos i'm all alone, on leave yet nothing to do.. I feel especially lonely don't know why. My circle of frenz definately have broaden but yet still feeling i'm all alone..


Was very surprised when J msg me last week, asking me how am i doing. Touched that he still cares and make me miss d happy days that we once both had. But yet on the other hand i still really can't connect to him, feel that there's always something that he's hiding from me. Or maybe i would never be with any people..


I always like to ask guys that i know, how to tell a guy if he's really interested/ like u. D same answer everytime, u won't know it...