Disappointment... I'm not sure if its me who set expectation in the first place. Been really upset and lost recently. And the people around just keeps on letting me down again and again. Last nite i went to dblo again, i shouldn't have went there. It brings back memories of Kel definately, although i know that he won't come but i still can't help it to look out for him.


He's such a disappointment already, and yet Des is like rubbing salt on my wounds. So much about 'special friend', and never ever say that you came down for me. I'm upset and mad by myself, for being for a pushover.. To everything in my life. They are taking advantages of me in all the possible ways. I can't take it anymore. I still can't believe that he is doing this to me, the thing is he's just not doing anything. Maybe its like what i said, i set expectation. Thinking back the times that i'm always there for him, i feel like a stupid fool really...