I did it again... i screwed it up again... I really did thot tat it would be something different this time. I can feel it... But did he...?
I'm tired. Tired of the games. People are scared of the truth and to be honest about their true feelings. If they let it out, they will get hurt. I do.
Day pass like flipping pages of a diary, and only memories left. U flip a page and there u have pass a day, its tat fast..
Am i being too rash and impatient? I admit i am, and you can't blame me. I ain't got any patience after what i've been through.
I'm not regreting anything that i've done, but only the things that i have not. Again, sorry for being blunt and straightfoward but that's what i exactly wanted at that point of time.
Work. I used to love it. Now i'm dread of it, and yet i have to pretend that i'm not. I can't stop, at least not now.. Gonna push myself harder and i know i can do it. I can do much more and better than that, i have to.
J is chasing me for the resume, i know its for my own good. Feeling confused and wrong that J treating me this way. Good. J shouldn't have, cos its cruel for me. But on the other hand J is my hope at times when there's no one i can turn to.. Where's my next J..? Please find me soon.. If an address would helps..?
My mum ask me to beat 'xiao ren', i thot i would do so.. its getting unbearable, i can't breathe.. Get off my back and leave me alone.. What do they want from me exaclty? Or what have i done to them? I do my best and they are not happy? Stop picking at me for everything i do.. Worried that i would turn crazy one day and run naked and free.. i would run fast and far..
Lots of pairs of eyes are on me now, i can feel it on my back. It can be frustrating and yet pleased at times.. Does it means i have got it?
Looking forward to my weekend break next month.. With tat someone and know it would it would be a great one. Appreciate tat he actually say yes.
Hard to find someone that i can really clicked and it can be sad to found one to. Never know when they will be out of your life. Is it safer to be guarded? Should i be brave and dream of it? There have been too many dreamless nights... Too long...
Do people actually know what they really want? Why they dun even want to try to get what they want, if not, they keep doing it the wrong way.. They always like it to be challenging and never like short cuts? What's wrong with these people? They like to suffer so much? Can't get out of it? Bullshit. Some tell me its love...
FAMILY !
KAZU SAN & JR~♥
COOKING FOR MY HIM ~
SINGING MY HEART OUT !
HEARIN KAZU SWOON ~~ (=
A CLEAN KAZU
GOING TO WORK WITH HIM !
BEING ORGANISED ~~
CLUBING WITH MY BABES !
CHOCOLATES :D
GOOD FOOD
crosses;
VULGARITIES !
CREAMY STUFFS (mayo, tartar..)
DAYDREAMER/ SLACKER
LIAR !
DISAPPOINTMENTS BY LOVED ONES )=
WEARING GOLD (YUCKS)
SNAKES!
THINGS NOT GG AS PLANNED
PEOPLE WHO ARE ALWAYS LATE!
ALCOHOLIC & VIOLENCE!
Wish List!! ^_^;
SAVES MORE MONEY !
CAREER WOMAN(:
TENDER LOVING CARE
SLIM DOWN
MORE CLOTHES & SHOES *SHOPPING!
DRIVING LICENSE
LEARN BALLROOM DANCE
A COOL CAR
HIT 50K SALES MONTHLY
CLUTCH
DIAMOND RING
GET MY TEETH FIX
HOLIDAY TRIP WITH KAZU~
